Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Monday, May 16, 2011
I'm doing the same thing
It's graduation time at my work! I'm in charge of alot of the events surrounding graduation and the end of the semester and it's unbelievably busy this time of year. Especially this year...graduation falls on my birthday this year -yay, me! My oldest daughter's 21st birthday is this same week - we must celebrate and celebrate big! My son's high school graduation is next week - and with that all the planning of which family members will come, planning a graduation party for him, will it rain, will it be too hot, yada, yada, yada.
This time of year I depend on my faculty to do certain things and get them in to me so I can complete graduation plans. It's always difficult to get certain members of my faculty to cooperate on deadlines - a handful are ALWAYS late and it throws my system off. If I set the deadlines earlier to allow for this, they catch on and turn things in late anyway. It's unbearable sometimes.
Today, I found that I am doing the same thing. While graduation is first on my agenda right now, there are others within the University that are working toward other goals and twice today, I find that I have forgotten deadlines and caused their systems to breakdown. It sucks to figure out that you are just as bad as the people you are complaining about.
I better get back to my to-do list and make sure I'm not late on anything else. Yeah, like that's gonna happen - I'm late for everything!
This time of year I depend on my faculty to do certain things and get them in to me so I can complete graduation plans. It's always difficult to get certain members of my faculty to cooperate on deadlines - a handful are ALWAYS late and it throws my system off. If I set the deadlines earlier to allow for this, they catch on and turn things in late anyway. It's unbearable sometimes.
Today, I found that I am doing the same thing. While graduation is first on my agenda right now, there are others within the University that are working toward other goals and twice today, I find that I have forgotten deadlines and caused their systems to breakdown. It sucks to figure out that you are just as bad as the people you are complaining about.
I better get back to my to-do list and make sure I'm not late on anything else. Yeah, like that's gonna happen - I'm late for everything!
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Random Word Generator - Attach
Hmmm! Attach, what can you say about that? We are all attached in one way or another, right? Whether it be to our spouses, our children, our pets, our jobs, our homes, our hometowns. I'm wondering now if there is an instance that someone out there is not attached to anything?
Just got a picture in my mind of a person without a home (homeless)- putting the person first is an OT habit I've picked up - it's not a homeless person, but a person without a home - that way being homeless doesn't define the person - get it? Like a person with a disability. Commonly, we will describe that person as a disabled person - but then the disability defines the person, not the other way around. People should take care to let the person define themselves - anyway, that was a short road trip - I'm back now...
So attachment - lately, I've been struggling with my growing family, thinking of them grown up, how they'll get along, will my children be close? Next to Darrell, and sometimes ahead of Darrell, my sister is my closest companion. We talk about everything, we help each other make decisions, we gripe and vent and cry to one another and I can only hope that my children someday have relationships with one another like this.
The way things are right now, at these ages, 21, 18, 14 and 12 - not so much. Heather usually gets along with all of them, but there are times when I'm sure she'd just as soon smack the crap out of one of her brothers or her sister as to look at them. But she doesn't and for that I am so glad!
Sonya usually gets along with her siblings, but sometimes it's because she just ignores them. When she does get riled up - look out! She's going for blood!
DJ and Colby are a source of concern lately - they seem to fight about every stinkin' thing they can! They're jealous of one another, theyre competitive with one another, have a really hard time giving the other one a compliment on something done well. They make fun of one another, make jokes at each others' expense and generally just walk around the house with attitude for one another looking to engage the other one in an argument.
What makes brothers do this? Is it normal? Will they outgrow it? I have a hard time right now thinking they will ever have a good relationship with one another and it's tearing me up. I've spoken to both of them about it, told them how worried I was about it and that they should try to be on the same side for awhile, to no avail. And to be honest, I think one brother is as bad as the other. Neither is innocent of giving the other grief. When one is quiet, the other starts in and vice versa.
So, will I ever have the family that looks forward to spending time together? When they grow up and have families of their own, will there be tension at family get togethers? I sure hope not because we're all attached and will continue to be whether they like it or not - I hope they end up liking it and that this is just a stage - like when they wanted to wear their Power Rangers outfits all day, every day. They grew out of that - hopefully, this too shall pass.
Just got a picture in my mind of a person without a home (homeless)- putting the person first is an OT habit I've picked up - it's not a homeless person, but a person without a home - that way being homeless doesn't define the person - get it? Like a person with a disability. Commonly, we will describe that person as a disabled person - but then the disability defines the person, not the other way around. People should take care to let the person define themselves - anyway, that was a short road trip - I'm back now...
So attachment - lately, I've been struggling with my growing family, thinking of them grown up, how they'll get along, will my children be close? Next to Darrell, and sometimes ahead of Darrell, my sister is my closest companion. We talk about everything, we help each other make decisions, we gripe and vent and cry to one another and I can only hope that my children someday have relationships with one another like this.
The way things are right now, at these ages, 21, 18, 14 and 12 - not so much. Heather usually gets along with all of them, but there are times when I'm sure she'd just as soon smack the crap out of one of her brothers or her sister as to look at them. But she doesn't and for that I am so glad!
Sonya usually gets along with her siblings, but sometimes it's because she just ignores them. When she does get riled up - look out! She's going for blood!
DJ and Colby are a source of concern lately - they seem to fight about every stinkin' thing they can! They're jealous of one another, theyre competitive with one another, have a really hard time giving the other one a compliment on something done well. They make fun of one another, make jokes at each others' expense and generally just walk around the house with attitude for one another looking to engage the other one in an argument.
What makes brothers do this? Is it normal? Will they outgrow it? I have a hard time right now thinking they will ever have a good relationship with one another and it's tearing me up. I've spoken to both of them about it, told them how worried I was about it and that they should try to be on the same side for awhile, to no avail. And to be honest, I think one brother is as bad as the other. Neither is innocent of giving the other grief. When one is quiet, the other starts in and vice versa.
So, will I ever have the family that looks forward to spending time together? When they grow up and have families of their own, will there be tension at family get togethers? I sure hope not because we're all attached and will continue to be whether they like it or not - I hope they end up liking it and that this is just a stage - like when they wanted to wear their Power Rangers outfits all day, every day. They grew out of that - hopefully, this too shall pass.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
What to say what to say, here we go again.
My niece just started a blog of her own and it caused me to take a look back at this one. If look at what I've done over the past two years, this is a piss-poor example of blog.
I'm using a new software that turns voice and text. It's called Dragon Naturally Speaking. It's pretty cool, but a little cumbersome. I wonder if it will get better the more I use it?
All is about the same in my life. Of course, it's baseball season and anyone who has been a follower of mine, which I'm sure you're on now, will remember how my family is obsessed with baseball and that we based our entire summer is not our entire lives around the sport.
Well I just wanted to try out the software actually and see if anyone else is still out there and I'll do my best to keep this blog going as best I can. It's strange that since I started using Facebook I don't feel the need to update any longer which is weird because no one really knew personally read my blog anyway, that I know of.
I'm going to get back to work now. I've spent enough time fussing with the software it would be great if I could get it to work mobile-ly, so that I can update my blog during my commute.
See y'all later,
Shannon
My niece just started a blog of her own and it caused me to take a look back at this one. If look at what I've done over the past two years, this is a piss-poor example of blog.
I'm using a new software that turns voice and text. It's called Dragon Naturally Speaking. It's pretty cool, but a little cumbersome. I wonder if it will get better the more I use it?
All is about the same in my life. Of course, it's baseball season and anyone who has been a follower of mine, which I'm sure you're on now, will remember how my family is obsessed with baseball and that we based our entire summer is not our entire lives around the sport.
Well I just wanted to try out the software actually and see if anyone else is still out there and I'll do my best to keep this blog going as best I can. It's strange that since I started using Facebook I don't feel the need to update any longer which is weird because no one really knew personally read my blog anyway, that I know of.
I'm going to get back to work now. I've spent enough time fussing with the software it would be great if I could get it to work mobile-ly, so that I can update my blog during my commute.
See y'all later,
Shannon
Friday, October 29, 2010
The Weekend
Darrell took Colby hunting this weekend, DJ is spending time with friends (not hunting, thanks to a couple of girls who shall remain nameless) and Sonya is going to Six Flags tomorrow with her friend and will spend all night. That means, wait for it......I will have the house completely to myself for several hours if not at least one full day. YIPPEE!!!
I plan to do a whole lotta nothin'! Watch TV - finish the Sookie Stackhouse book I'm reading right now - do a little homework - eat - lounge with the cat & dog. Really nothing worth mentioning. I'm hoping to just let my brain rest. And hopefully, I'll be able to come up with a plan to get my ass in gear to make some changes in my life.
I'm so damned tired all the time and I know it's because I've gained so much weight. I can't seem to drop it - I don't really think it has much to do with my diet (though it's not the greatest) but more to do with the fact that I just don't move. Having a sedentiary job and driving 3 hours each day doesn't do wonders for ass expansion!!! Or whole body expansion for that matter. I think this extra weight is causing me to feel crappy and I'm sick of it.
I cannot get up in the morning. I stay up too late and it's a vicious circle. I get up late, get to work late, leave work late, get home late, fix dinner late, clean up late and go to bed late - I'm constantly racing with the clock and I feel like a hampster on an exercise wheel! I hope to get everything done for the week by Sunday and start the week fresh with meals planned, groceries bought & put away, laundry done & put away, yada, yada, yada - then I wonder how my week will go. I think it will go swimmingly!
I started following a new blog describing Shay Kelly's project to visit all 50 states in 50 weeks and donate 200 canned goods a week to the homeless. She's doing some other things too and this website will tell you all about it. Anyway - she said this is the trick to setting goals...
Goals should be...
Specific
Measurable
Attainable
Revisable
Timely
Challenging
If you hit 80% of your goal - it is a good goal - anything less and it's too hard, anything more and it's too easy. I'm gonna try to develop some goals this weekend - for weight management, exercise and time management. I'll keep you informed on how things go.
I plan to do a whole lotta nothin'! Watch TV - finish the Sookie Stackhouse book I'm reading right now - do a little homework - eat - lounge with the cat & dog. Really nothing worth mentioning. I'm hoping to just let my brain rest. And hopefully, I'll be able to come up with a plan to get my ass in gear to make some changes in my life.
I'm so damned tired all the time and I know it's because I've gained so much weight. I can't seem to drop it - I don't really think it has much to do with my diet (though it's not the greatest) but more to do with the fact that I just don't move. Having a sedentiary job and driving 3 hours each day doesn't do wonders for ass expansion!!! Or whole body expansion for that matter. I think this extra weight is causing me to feel crappy and I'm sick of it.
I cannot get up in the morning. I stay up too late and it's a vicious circle. I get up late, get to work late, leave work late, get home late, fix dinner late, clean up late and go to bed late - I'm constantly racing with the clock and I feel like a hampster on an exercise wheel! I hope to get everything done for the week by Sunday and start the week fresh with meals planned, groceries bought & put away, laundry done & put away, yada, yada, yada - then I wonder how my week will go. I think it will go swimmingly!
I started following a new blog describing Shay Kelly's project to visit all 50 states in 50 weeks and donate 200 canned goods a week to the homeless. She's doing some other things too and this website will tell you all about it. Anyway - she said this is the trick to setting goals...
Goals should be...
Specific
Measurable
Attainable
Revisable
Timely
Challenging
If you hit 80% of your goal - it is a good goal - anything less and it's too hard, anything more and it's too easy. I'm gonna try to develop some goals this weekend - for weight management, exercise and time management. I'll keep you informed on how things go.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Random Word Generator - Conclude
Ahem, ahem. So, I really want to be a writer someday so I think I need to start practicing more. A friend of mine told me to just write 500 words a day - sort of a beginning exercise, so that's what I'm gonna use my blog for - for awhile. Just see if I can get this thing off the ground, you know?
I sat down to write - nothing. Nuthin', not-a-thang came to mind, so I went to this online word generator thing - the word I got - conclude. Hmmm, how do I write a blog about the word conclude. Here goes.
I very seldom ever conclude anything I begin. I am forever deciding that I would be a better person if I only would (insert random idea here), eat right, exercise more, write daily, get up early, stay up late, make a list, destroy the list, you get it. I go on and on and never really get anything accomplished.
Lately, I've been thinking about my death - I know, morbid - but it's who I am. I'm 40 and I've lost a couple of friends lately - one of whom was my best friend in high school and we were almost the exact same age (-5days) and I've been asking myself - what if I died tomorrow, what would people say about me? Should I change anything? If my life was over, what would I wish I would have done, said, felt? I'm not sure of the answers to those questions, but I can say I'm not done living and *this* is not all there is. I sure as hell hope not anyway.
I feel like I'm racing through each day, week, year to get to something.....but what? It's back to that "I'll be a better, happier, (whatever) person when I (insert randome thing here). I've got to stop telling myself that I'll be a better person and I'll be a happier person and just start doing those things. I want to live now, not wait until I have more money, or my kids are grown or I'm retired. I have to start living now - doing things I want to do, that make me happy.
If others want to join me, they are welcome, but I'm going to stop putting my ideas, desires, needs on the back burner to follow someone else around while they live their lives - this includes hubby and kids. I want to be in their lives, but I want them to be in mine as well. I want them to know me (I don't think they do right now) and maybe follow me around sometimes.
So, to conclude this post, I'll be a much better person as soon as I start living my life - and that starts now.
I sat down to write - nothing. Nuthin', not-a-thang came to mind, so I went to this online word generator thing - the word I got - conclude. Hmmm, how do I write a blog about the word conclude. Here goes.
I very seldom ever conclude anything I begin. I am forever deciding that I would be a better person if I only would (insert random idea here), eat right, exercise more, write daily, get up early, stay up late, make a list, destroy the list, you get it. I go on and on and never really get anything accomplished.
Lately, I've been thinking about my death - I know, morbid - but it's who I am. I'm 40 and I've lost a couple of friends lately - one of whom was my best friend in high school and we were almost the exact same age (-5days) and I've been asking myself - what if I died tomorrow, what would people say about me? Should I change anything? If my life was over, what would I wish I would have done, said, felt? I'm not sure of the answers to those questions, but I can say I'm not done living and *this* is not all there is. I sure as hell hope not anyway.
I feel like I'm racing through each day, week, year to get to something.....but what? It's back to that "I'll be a better, happier, (whatever) person when I (insert randome thing here). I've got to stop telling myself that I'll be a better person and I'll be a happier person and just start doing those things. I want to live now, not wait until I have more money, or my kids are grown or I'm retired. I have to start living now - doing things I want to do, that make me happy.
If others want to join me, they are welcome, but I'm going to stop putting my ideas, desires, needs on the back burner to follow someone else around while they live their lives - this includes hubby and kids. I want to be in their lives, but I want them to be in mine as well. I want them to know me (I don't think they do right now) and maybe follow me around sometimes.
So, to conclude this post, I'll be a much better person as soon as I start living my life - and that starts now.
Monday, October 18, 2010
Another Beginning
Dear Blog - I'm so sorry I've neglected you for so long! I'm gonna try this again. I have a friend on facebook that started a new blog and I've so enjoyed reading hers that I thought I'd give it another shot. So here goes...
All is well in my household - or as well as it could be, I suppose. I don't foresee any big changes in the future - so I guess we're all good.
Heather is engaged to Wesley. They've been dating for a year now and he gave her a ring and proposed on their 1 year anniversary. They're planning to have a long engagement and I'm glad - I want her to get her degree and make sure she is able to take advantage of her youth in a way that I didn't. I'm realizing more and more every day though that what I want for her and what she decides to do are far apart sometimes and I have to let her make her own mistakes and make the decisions she feels are best for her life, even if I "know" they're gonna come back to bite her in the end.
DJ is a senior in high school and just itching to be a "grown up". Why in the hell would anyone want to do that? Being a grown up sucks eggs, seriously! Thinking about Senior stuff, announcements for graduation, senior pics, etc. He's in a little trouble right now regarding some girl drama, but I'm hoping he'll come out on the other side a little wiser than he went in. We'll see if he can learn from his mistakes.
Colby's 14th birthday is Thursday. Not sure what we'll do for him. We always have big get togethers, but this year, I don't know. Money is tight, so there's no big party - maybe we'll just invite some friends to play baseball - he usually likes that, but girls have entered the picture, so I'm not sure what he'll want.
Sonya is 11 and on her own path. She doesn't really need anyone except for the basic life requirements - she's pretty sure of herself, can take matters into her own hands, and makes decisions pretty well for herself. I'm not sure if this is all good though because sometimes I just want her to be my little girl and sometimes I get darned right pissed at the way she acts, but that is so with all of my children.
My husband, Darrell, is struggling with his body shop. He hasn't had much business and his heart just isn't in it. He really wants to get a "real" job and I'd be glad for that too. Not only for the financial stability, but also for the interaction he would have with others. I think he spends too much time alone up in that garage and sometimes I think it makes him a little batty - and hard to be around. We'll keep looking and hopefully a good opportunity will come along.
I'm finishing up my last two classes for my undergrad degree. I'm excited but know I'll probably end up moving on for my masters. I'm a lifetime learner:)
Just a quick note about how much fun I had this weekend with my sister, Shelly & my nephew & niece, Jacob & Madison. They went to Six Flags with me, Colby & Sonya and Shelly & I laughed our heads off. We all had a good time and of course, vowed to get together more often. We really need to do that. My sister and I talk on the phone usually every day, but I miss that face-to-face contact with her. And I really want my kids to be close to their cousins - and her kids don't have that much family - so I want them to have the opportunity to have close family.
Had a baby shower for my niece Sarah yesterday. It was a little awkward but our family get togethers are becoming more and more like that lately, it's sad. I hate that this side of the family is going through some adjustment, but I feel I just cannot keep my mouth shut to keep the peace any longer and I feel strongly that I have to let others know how I feel or I can only blame myself for feeling crapped on. So there - a little cryptic - but you know how family is...
Until next time (hopefully, not a year)...
All is well in my household - or as well as it could be, I suppose. I don't foresee any big changes in the future - so I guess we're all good.
Heather is engaged to Wesley. They've been dating for a year now and he gave her a ring and proposed on their 1 year anniversary. They're planning to have a long engagement and I'm glad - I want her to get her degree and make sure she is able to take advantage of her youth in a way that I didn't. I'm realizing more and more every day though that what I want for her and what she decides to do are far apart sometimes and I have to let her make her own mistakes and make the decisions she feels are best for her life, even if I "know" they're gonna come back to bite her in the end.
DJ is a senior in high school and just itching to be a "grown up". Why in the hell would anyone want to do that? Being a grown up sucks eggs, seriously! Thinking about Senior stuff, announcements for graduation, senior pics, etc. He's in a little trouble right now regarding some girl drama, but I'm hoping he'll come out on the other side a little wiser than he went in. We'll see if he can learn from his mistakes.
Colby's 14th birthday is Thursday. Not sure what we'll do for him. We always have big get togethers, but this year, I don't know. Money is tight, so there's no big party - maybe we'll just invite some friends to play baseball - he usually likes that, but girls have entered the picture, so I'm not sure what he'll want.
Sonya is 11 and on her own path. She doesn't really need anyone except for the basic life requirements - she's pretty sure of herself, can take matters into her own hands, and makes decisions pretty well for herself. I'm not sure if this is all good though because sometimes I just want her to be my little girl and sometimes I get darned right pissed at the way she acts, but that is so with all of my children.
My husband, Darrell, is struggling with his body shop. He hasn't had much business and his heart just isn't in it. He really wants to get a "real" job and I'd be glad for that too. Not only for the financial stability, but also for the interaction he would have with others. I think he spends too much time alone up in that garage and sometimes I think it makes him a little batty - and hard to be around. We'll keep looking and hopefully a good opportunity will come along.
I'm finishing up my last two classes for my undergrad degree. I'm excited but know I'll probably end up moving on for my masters. I'm a lifetime learner:)
Just a quick note about how much fun I had this weekend with my sister, Shelly & my nephew & niece, Jacob & Madison. They went to Six Flags with me, Colby & Sonya and Shelly & I laughed our heads off. We all had a good time and of course, vowed to get together more often. We really need to do that. My sister and I talk on the phone usually every day, but I miss that face-to-face contact with her. And I really want my kids to be close to their cousins - and her kids don't have that much family - so I want them to have the opportunity to have close family.
Had a baby shower for my niece Sarah yesterday. It was a little awkward but our family get togethers are becoming more and more like that lately, it's sad. I hate that this side of the family is going through some adjustment, but I feel I just cannot keep my mouth shut to keep the peace any longer and I feel strongly that I have to let others know how I feel or I can only blame myself for feeling crapped on. So there - a little cryptic - but you know how family is...
Until next time (hopefully, not a year)...
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