Monday, April 28, 2008

Dieting Again

My husband decided he wanted to go to church yesterday. I've been going a little bit here and there, but not at all regularly and he probably hasn't been since before Christmas, so I was a little surprised, but was excited about it nonetheless.

I knew they were going to have a picnic after church that day, but had not planned to participate. I was again surprised that he wanted to join in the festivities and the kids were thrilled so off we went. When we got there, we had a wonderful time in fellowship and the kids all went in separate directions with those of their age groups and a good time was had by all. While there, I was asked to join in a Biggest Loser competition. Ten of us each put in $20 and at the end of 8 weeks, whoever has lost the most weight will get $200!!! So, now we'll see if money will motivate me to lose weight since nothing else will. We all weighed in at Doc's office (it was sooo embarrassing, but I figured it was the first step!) and plan to weigh in every Sunday after church (Is this God's way of getting me in the habit of attending church regularly?) So wish me luck!

My plan is to count calories this time. I've done Weight Watchers kind of and I've lost some weight on it, but I'm gonna try sort of a combo now and try to keep my calories down to about 1500 each day. Doc says 1500-1600 is a healthy number, but I'm hungry and this is what I've had so far today...

cereal - 120
milk - 40
coffee/creamer - 50
tomato juice - 60
raw vegetables - 50
frozen lunch - 230
brussel sprouts - 50
salad w/EVOO - 60

That's 660 so far. I plan to have some more raw veggies on my way home and another frozen meal for dinner with some veggies and a salad - then some of these yummy cinnamon streusel ricecake things that are only 90 calories. Then probably a sugar free popsicle or two - they're only 10 cals each so I may just be living off of those for awhile. Almost sounds like I won't have enough calories today, but we'll see.

My blog will probably be overcome with calories and weight loss stuff for awhile, so if it's all boring to you, feel free to skip me for a couple of months and come back when I'm slim and trim:)

Friday, April 25, 2008

The weekend is finally here!

I don't know why, but this has been a very long week for me. I guess it's because I don't really have much to look forward to this weekend, and last weekend was packed. My 11 year old has a tournament this weekend. I hope it doesn't get rained out. He gets so disappointed when that happens.

My 15 year old son is gone for the whole weekend. He's growing up and I'm just a little sad about it. He's gone with his high school baseball team to Lebanon, MO for a tournament. They're staying in hotels and running around all weekend. I wanted to go with him, but he plays JV and this is really just a varsity tournament so he probably won't even step foot on the field and since Colby is actually playing in a tournament this weekend, I thought it best to stay and watch him. If I'm this sad over a weekend away, I don't know what I'm going to do when Heather leaves for college. I better up the antidepressants now!!!

This morning Sonya said she needed to take some of her clothes to school for Jalynn to wear because Jalynn's mom won't buy her any cute clothes. I know Jalynn's mom and she most certainly does buy Jalynn cute clothes and I told Sonya so. I told her she could not take any clothes to school because she might lose them or Jalynn might forget to bring them back and she said that Jalynn was planning to change in the bathroom before school and at the end of the day, change back into her own clothes.! Not gonna happen. Can you believe this? In the 3rd grade? Not to mention the fact that Jalynn is about a foot taller than Sonya - I could just see one of Sonya's skirts on her:) Whatever am I gonna do with this child?

One last thing...I cannot seem to get anything done at work because of the internet. Lately, I've been surfing around a really big part of the day. I have got to stop it, but it's so addicting and this is my really busy time of year, so next week - I'm limiting myself to one hour checking internet sites - that's it! No more - at least until my busy time is through.

Monday, April 21, 2008

Fun, Fun, Fun

Here is a picture of my sis-in-law Beth, my niece Misty, me (in the red) and my sis-in-law Lulu (Linda). We were really having a great time at Darrell's b-day party Saturday.

This is a pic of Darrell & me at the party.

This is me doing a wild & crazy dance.

This is me and my sister Shelly. She means the world to me - I'm so glad to have her in my life.

Really fun times this weekend. We had a blast.

Monday, April 14, 2008

Frigid temperatures, vodka and warm hearts:)

Had a really good time this weekend. It was ffffrrrreeezzzingggg!!! We had some time to connect with each other and just have actual conversations without being interrupted by kids or having to take someone somewhere or pick someone up. We talked a little about our relationship, but not too much mainly because neither of us wanted to spoil our time there.

I really had fun at the games on Saturday, but we were there from 2pm to almost 2 in the morning. I had to compensate for the cold be consuming many, many drinks containing alcoholic beverages. Soon, it wasn't even that cold. I am totally lying - I froze my ass off the entire time, I guess I just didn't mind so much after a drink or two. And Sunday, we didn't get alot of alone time together because one of the other players had to ride home with us, so the conversation was of a very light nature.

I'm not sure if this was exactly what we needed, but it certainly was a band-aid for our present problems. Hopefully, it is enough to keep the wounds from getting infected and to prove to us that we really do enjoy each other's company and can have a good time and good conversation when we give ourselves the chance. And also that this marriage is worth fighting for - though his other side came out a little last night so tomorrow's post will probably be totally opposite of this one, but I'll take what I can get:)

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Birthday Wishes

Tomorrow is Darrell's 40th birthday. My wish for him is that we find our connection again. I know it's there. I wake up in the middle of the night on occassion and catch myself rolling over toward him to cuddle without thinking before I remember that I don't feel close enough to him to do it when I'm fully awake anymore, but I still want to feel his warmth, so I know it's still there somewhere.

I know we still have it because sometimes when I look at him, I'll see that spark in his eye or the dimple that is only there when I really, really love him and then just as quickly, it goes away, so I know we still have it.

I know we haven't lost it quite yet because every now and then when he reaches past me to grab something and accidentally brushes my skin, I get goosebumps and I get that bubbly little rumbling in my stomach for a few seconds before it passes, so I know we haven't lost it quite yet.

We just absolutely must find it again! I know it's there, I know we still have it and I know we haven't totally lost it, but I'm gonna look for it this weekend when we're in Kansas City. We're going without the kids, staying by ourselves in a hotel with a King-sized bed (granted the softball team will be there and they'll be games to contend with) - but I'll pray for rain all weekend! But I really feel like this might be a make it or break it weekend for me. I've been trying to talk to him lately to tell him how I feel and that I'm about to completely lose it, but I don't know if he believes me or really wants to believe or understand me, so I'm gonna give it the 'ole college try and put my all into it this weekend and we'll see where it brings me.

I've been praying for guidance and patience and better understanding of him and his ways and what he's going through, so hopefully we can connect and find what's been hiding between us lately.

Happy 40th Birthday Darrell! I truly love you with all my heart and soul and I'm not ready to give up quite yet.

Friday, April 4, 2008

Poor baby Sonya:(((

Sonya and I have an appointment on Monday. We have to go and get two of her baby teeth pulled. OUCH!!!!. She was very concerned about her teeth and has been for several months. Her two front teet were coming in very crooked and her baby teeth right next to them had fallen out several months ago and the permanent ones have not yet broken through. I was mildly concerned about this, but I remember being concerned about my other children's teeth and then they all came in and they all look great and I worried for nothing so I told myself to stop it and I did:)

Well, I figured she was going to need braces, but that she just turned 9 and we had to wait until all her permanent teeth came in so we had awhile. My niece & nephew have braces so I told my sis-in-law to ask the dentist when he'd like to take a look at her and he said bring her on in and we'll take a look, sometimes we can get started with a few on the first four teeth, so I made an appt thinking we'd go in for a consultation and look around, get x-rays, go through costs, etc.

Well, he says the poor thing has alot going on up there and needs to get some stuff done right away to avoid future problems. The two baby teeth second from the front teeth are holding the permanent ones from coming down and those roots are "eating" the roots of the two front teeth. I know, it's gross, but I saw it with my own eyes. Well, not really the eating part, but I saw the roots kind of bumping into the other roots - you know, like they were gonna eat them later.

So, he put two cute little braces on her two front teeth and referred us to someone else to get those other stubborn baby teeth pulled (that should have already fallen out on their own) and we have to do that on Monday). Then back to the orthodontist in 6 weeks and hopefully two more teeth will have grown in by that time and we can attach the braces already there to two more teeth. We'll just keep connecting them as they grow - how convenient. He says she's likely to have more than one set of braces over the next few years and my insurance only covers $1500 lifetime on orthodontics so looks like Mr. Piggy Bank might be broken for quite some time.

On a related note, I was a little pissed about this. Students in Sonya's class that had perfect attendance for the quarter received a treat yesterday. They all got to enjoy a popsicle right in front of the children that did not have perfect attendance. I do not appreciate this, not only because my child did not have perfect attendance due to a prior sickness and her orthodontist appointment but also for the other children in the class that had been sick. I totally believe that the children that do have perfect attendance should be rewarded because that is quite a feat, but couldn't it have been done with a ribbon or a pin - why food and why did they get to enjoy it right in front of the other kids? That seems totally unfair to me. I told Sonya she may never have perfect attendance again, now that she must see the orthodontist every six weeks and she said "That's OK, mom - I'll have perfect teeth instead!" That's my girl!!!!!