The Heat and the Revelation

Last night, I rented "The Heat" with Melissa McCarthy.  I was really excited to watch it and thought the hubs would enjoy it, too.  Comedies used to be his favorite kind of movie.  I had heard the language was raunchy (which made me want to see it even more - I love me some f-bombs!) and that it was hilarious.  Colby told me it was one of the funniest movies he'd ever seen so I was stoked to watch it (do people say stoked anymore?)

We didn't eat dinner til after 8 and Darrell was hee-hawing around when finally I told him I was going to put the movie in the DVD player in our room.  There were a few times that I laughed out loud at some things that Melissa McCarthy said (I really, really like her as an actress) but to be honest, I fell asleep a little more than halfway through it.  I realized that I don't like watching stuff with Darrell anymore.  Every time I think he is going to really enjoy something on TV, and I "save" something for him to watch - just waiting for his reaction because I know he's going to love it - he doesn't!  There is no reaction - there's no laugh out loud moment for him - just crickets.  So, I'm don't trying to find stuff he will like in a movie.  I gave up watching American Horror Story for this and I'm disappointed that we didn't share a laugh like I thought we would.  I hope this is not happening to me.

Don't worry, I'll watch AHS tonight and probably the rest of The Heat before I return it.  And I'll watch by myself - maybe I'll get a few more laughs out of it.

Today is Day 4 of Advocare.  I didn't have to drink the fiber drink this morning but instead took two probiotic capsules that are supposed to aid in the digestion process.  I've only been to the bathroom once so far this week (totally normal for me but I expected more from a cleanse.)  I've been told perhaps these probiotic pills will get that process going as well.

I did pretty well with the clean eating yesterday and so far today.  I'm not totally following it to the T so I don't know if I'll have the expected results.  I'm also not moving my ass at all (as in exercise) so I'm sure that will keep my progress from being as much as I had hoped for.  I don't know why I always think these types of things are suddenly going to change the person I am.  I was so gung-ho to start this cleanse and planned what I was going to eat, bought different stuff at the grocery store and have filled my cabinets with healthy food but now that I'm actually doing it, I'm not following it to the letter of the law so I'm left wondering why do I even try these schemes?  I know this is different that Hydroxycut or any other pill I've tried.  It's different that the cabbage soup diet or the HCG (really?  I really put HCG hormone under my tongue thinking it was going to help me lose weight?) or any of the other fad things I've done and I do feel like if I switched to this type of lifestyle or diet at least 80% of the time, I would definitely be more healthy and probably alot slimmer.  I think I can work toward that goal - to eat this way at least 80% of the time allowing myself the tablespoon of sugar in my morning coffee (altogether - not just one cup) or couple of small pieces of cornbread with my ham & beans without beating myself up.

I think the key always has been and always will be exercise.  I really don't eat that much and I do make good choices most of the time (except when it's birthday bonanza day) but I am going to have to make the commitment to exercise if I want to see real results.  I just don't know if I'm ready for that yet.  I think I'm ready but I also thought I was ready to eat clean for 10 days without cheating at all.

I'll leave you with this lovely picture of Paula Deen riding butter.  I hope it works (not sure how to post a gif).  You may have seen this before but today was my first time ever - and I laughed out loud:)